Day Before Induction

So I lied, I'm posting one more blog since tonight is a big night. Tomorrow is my scheduled induction. There are so many things I'm feeling right now. I have gotten so used to being pregnant that I am having a hard time imagining what it'll be like to not have this little kicker bumping around all the time. I'm terrified of the entire hospital process too. I've never been a patient in the hospital, I've actually never even been inside of a hospital room at all. That scares me more than it should compared to everything else that begins tomorrow.
I spent the day putting together baby stuff. Topping off the diaper bag, hospital bag, making a final dinner, assembling a swing and play pen/changing table, and a bassinet. Car seat remains to be installed...its been too hot to go outside and try to hunch and twist to get it set up. I blame Cesar for its homeless status (and you can too).
I am actually starting to feel like my body is preparing for labor finally. I've been experiencing some of the less than pleasant signs. Among them is a lack of movement from our little dude. He has definitely slowed down but has not ceased head banging against my cervix. I've also increased bathroom trips from 1 or 2 a night to a definite 3. At least I'm used to not sleeping through the night already. Nervous nervous nervous.

Here's hoping the next couple of days (and years to follow) go well.

Week 40 1/7th

Yesterday was my due date and still no sign of baby. According to Dr. Yeo I am "still closed up." So we scheduled an induction for the 24th at 6pm. This brings about so many new feelings that I never thought to prepare for. When you prepare for having a baby you prepare to be unprepared but now we know where and when to expect our guy and I don't have to worry about my water breaking unexpectedly. It also takes a little bit of the magic out of the process. There is no element of surprise (although I'm sure Pitocin will have me singing a different tune) with induction, everything is scheduled down to when to administer which drugs. I never realized the full page list of medications that is associated with induction. I guess sometimes nature makes mistakes (like she did with my hair color).
I'm excited to finally see his face and experience all the things that await my new little family. I can't wait to make him giggle, soothe a cry, and fit into my old jeans. There so many changes that I can't wait to go through and so many things I can't wait to go back to normal and even more things I don't know how I feel about. Cesar is still trying to act cool about things but I see through his act. He is totally nervous and excited and doesn't know what to do...at all.
All in all we're both pretty glad to see this phase come to an end. It'll be nice to be able to bend down, sleep on my stomach, drink caffeine and alcohol, not have heartburn, eat sushi, and wear pants with a fly. I'll miss spending time out with my friends but that has been long gone for me for about...9 months. I'll have to make mom friends...sigh.
Truth is, I've gotten so used to being pregnant I can't really pin down how I anticipate my future thoughts and feelings. Maybe this blog will continue on tracking my life as a mother, if I'll have time. One thing is for sure, I know I already know I don't want to go back to work :)

wish us lots of luck and sleep!!!

until Tuesday,
abby